December 17, 2008

Today I worked at the store again. I'm getting really excited for Christmas. Christmas Eve is only a week away. I still have lots of shopping to do. But I guess that isn't really the spirit of Christmas. I am trying really hard to focus on Christ this Christmas season and be more like him. I finished reading the Book of Mormon for this year early in December so I started into the New Testament. Kris said that if I wanted to learn more about Christ I needed to read it again. I'm hoping I'll get more insight this time just like I did with this last time that I read the Book of Mormon. It seemed like every chapter had something in it that I needed to hear or ponder at the specific time I read it.

I am very greatful to have the scriptures to guide my life. I think if I didn't believe in Christ my life would be really different. I have depression and it seems like the only way I get through things is leaning on my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. The more I consistantly do the things the lord asks the happier my life is. One important thing that I've learned this last year is to be GREATFUL for everything and live in the gratitude circle. I've had to try not to feel entitled to things anymore. Plus, things don't always have to be the way they seem.

I am especially greatful for my wonderful husband and all that he does for me. He has been sick a lot durring our short time of marriage and I have been pretty onery about it because it happens so often. I'm trying now to do my best to help him out and just be happy. It has made a bid difference. I also recently decided that I didn't need to give everything I loved before I got married. I just needed to put it in a different Priority order. When Zak started into Gymnastics it really made me want to do it again. It was something that made me feel good inside and out. It is such an accomplishment to me. So right now I am just doing gymnastics for fun and exercise. But who knows, maybe I'll be able to compete again.

I'm also very greatful for children who love me in spite of my flaws. They love me and take care of me when I feel sad. They have such sweet spirits. I think they've taught me more than I've taught them. But I realised I didn't need to teach them everything, because I really don't know everything. But everyone has different gifts and talents that contribute to raising a child. It really does take a whole community to raise a child. But it does start at home.